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† [我的恩典是夠你用的] (哥林多後書12章9節)
 
April 27

smile

 
It is passion.
All it has to be is just to make people feel + be joyful.
no matter how big/small is the item/matter.
 
Open-mouthed
 
April 23

so many little things i want to do

 
do the 'nobody but you' dance with dear wahahaha
buy imac
study research
yoga classes
improve my skill in SLR
know more on God's word
act in God's word
open own flower shop
design own house
live happily with my dear and family members
tidy up my super messy room
catch up soon with my gooood friendsss
sit besides pilot in airplane
to improve my body's health
to volunteer at church
to save moneeyyy
to get regular sleep!
to get whatever supplement mom need me to eat
to repair my harddisc
to do cheerleading dance again if possible
to practise piano again with my rusty hand
 
 
January 30

phrases

 
no one will manufacture a lock without a key,
similarly God wont give problems without solutions
 
be bold when you loose & be calm when you win.
heated gold becomes ornament. beaten copper becomes wires. depleted stone becomes statue.
so the more pain you get in life you become more valuable
 
no one can go back and change a bad beginning;
but anyone can start now & create a successful ending
 
"changing the face" can change nothing,
but "facing the change" can change everything
 
don't complain about others, change yourself if you want peace
 
if a problem can be solved,
no need to worry about it.
If a problem cannot be solved,
what is the use of worrying?
 
November 17

a suggestion from the little fuipo (15 yrs old)

 
 
WHAT TO DO WHEN YOU ARE SO STRESS :
 
THINK OF the upcoming KOREA TRIP
THINK OF SPA
THINK OF THE FUN
THINK OF THE CUTE KOREAN BOYS (by the way i am not young anymore)
 
FOR 3 MINUTES.. EVERY 2 HOURS
 
-.-"
 
So good to be student... i wish i can go back to school again!!
 
----
 
i want to go home.... home... home.... despite the great experience of work, humorous colleagues, lovely love life & friends, project awards, company + school events ---  i want to go home.... to play with my stoopid dog + sisters + brothers + dad + mom - to go for massages - to eat sleep regularly + live healthily - to drive - to relax - to have my brain go blank for the moment...
 
1 more month to go!!!
 
 
October 14

挑拨离间

 
在每一个人的面前你都是‘好人’
 
有的没的、不管你事的,从头到尾不都是你在说吗。
干嘛不善用你的口才呢?
而且会演,可以进 MEDIACORP eh
又有头脑,可以编剧
又会唱歌喔!去当明星啊
不去 CNN 做 - 真得太浪费了
 
September 27

吾爱沙巴

 

随着916事件变天行动的逼近,让我有股冲动想要为我hometown - 沙巴说几句话。
我不会写作,我只是想用简单的词句表达出来,这些都是不争的事实。

 

很多西马人都会认为沙巴人很“大沙巴主义”;沙巴人亦对西马人很有偏见。我承认我是,也相信很多沙巴汉都一样。

虽然沙巴沦为全马来西亚最贫穷的州属不是西马人民的错(那是联邦政府的错),但是西马对人东马的不了解一样让我汗颜。

因为他们从来没有经历过东马人的生活是怎样水深火热法。

这就是同一个国家,却有两种不同的待遇。

 

我来到西马后就被西马人问我沙巴人是否住在树上,我妹妹还一度被怀疑是土族而不是华人。

我们不是生番,不打猎,不吃老虎,也没有和orang utan睡在同一张床。

西马人都不了解我到底是住在沙巴或者沙捞越。通常他们都会习惯性地叫 “SabahSarawak', 我也懒得解释。

Anyway我是绝对不会问你是否是“kedahkelantan” 或者 “melakasembilan' 或者 'penangperlis'...

 

我很努力想要介绍沙巴给西马的朋友认识,沙巴有住宅区,有market,有disco,有码头,有Giant。

而且还有几个世界级的旅游胜地。

可是又很矛盾的,因为虽然我是住在有瓦有墙的屋子里,但是这里没有水没有电,也没有一条稍微好一点的路。

我来到西马后曾经被housemate责骂我“为什么你小便后都不冲水?你这样很不卫生ehhhh”

 

我听了这句话愣了一下下,我只是撒了一泡尿,就要冲水??

后来我才恍然大悟,原来西马每天24小时,每小时60分钟,每分钟60秒都有水源不停供应。

哼!真不好意思,我不小心把沙巴所养成的坏习惯给带来了,我家没有水!妈妈不给冲水!

一个星期只来两天的水,分别在星期一和星期四,这就是我hometown Sandakan所实行的policy!

尤其是我家在高山,只能分得两天的自来水供应。在较低的市区或许会有三天到四天的水源供应。

我家的厕所应该是最臭的吧,马桶里的尿几乎要泡成甘蔗水了才舍得flush一下。 不然储蓄的水用完了,你就没有水冲凉。

你要冲凉还是flush你那泡尿?自己选。 那些有养成一天冲2次凉+天天洗头的朋友们,真是抱歉了。我们只能在星期一和星期四才能洗头。

 

讲到电源供应,我hometown平均一个月有72小时是停电的,最高纪录试过连续一个星期每天停电8个小时。

不停电就不是我hometown,这是每个沙巴汉都会说的。

吉隆坡停电半个小时就会上报纸,沙巴停电好几个小时导致交通灯失灵,交通瘫痪却无人问津!

我记得我第一次带西马朋友来沙巴的第一天,家里就停电了,刚好是晚上,大伙儿会到屋外去晒月亮,看星星。

如果我说,在我家,你一伸手就可以摸到月亮,月亮亮得可以把你照出影子,还可以让你辨别各个星座,你一定要相信。

(因为我hometown的空气实在是太好了)

 

Anyway,关于停电停水的事,我在沙巴生活了二十多年,什么都习惯了,反而因为长期的压逼而麻木了,变得不会反抗。

沙巴人就是那么单纯,逆来顺受。

所以政府老是欺负沙巴,拿走沙巴资源去发展吉隆坡,卖了沙巴的木桐去西马起高楼,抽干沙巴的油田为西马做南北大道,

用沙巴的orang utan换了中国的熊猫却把熊猫放在西马。

这样有本事捐钱救助四川却没办法做条好一点的马路给沙巴,45年来都是一样。

沙巴的第一条fly over也是近年来才完成的,开心死沙巴汉。

 

国家抛弃沙巴,让沙巴自生自灭,每次都说要解决非法移民的问题,结果不了了之。

沙巴的非法移民还比本地人要多,全部来自Filipine,去年提到Filipine要拿回沙巴,

如果是通过投票决定,凭着寄居在沙巴庞大的Filipine人数,沙巴肯定完蛋,就这样轻易拱手让人了。

 

 

沙巴没水没电不说,就连就业机会也少之又少,结果年轻人都外流,全部跑来西马找吃。

你知道吗?一瓶yogurt在西马卖RM3.70,在沙巴却卖RM5.70,所有杂志书刊一律比西马贵。

因为货品从西马运过来都要贵算运送费,赚到的钱又要被抽去发展吉隆坡,加上本地人又要拼命找吃,所以物价越调越高。

可是这里还有人拿月薪RM200的人,还惨过在西马洗厕所。

 

 

每次回去沙巴,除了中学生以外都很少见到年轻人。沙巴什么都没有,年轻人留在沙巴也帮不了沙巴。

去年有几位同乡朋友坚持毕业后要留在沙巴,当时我还说他们笨,有KL这么好的地方,为什么要留在沙巴。

朋友说“没有人愿意留在沙巴,沙巴永远站不起来”,他点醒了我,但很无奈的,沙巴真的没有工作给我,我不得不留在西马工作。

上个月,我的堂弟辞职回沙巴了,我好奇地问,沙巴人工那么低,你这样回去就很不划算了。

堂弟说:“西马始终不是家,我怎样都会回来这里,沙巴一定会有公司需要我”

我听了很惭愧,因为我本是打算在此落地生根的。但现在我真的醒悟了,就算我人在西马,一样要为沙巴打气。

沙巴这么美丽的一片净土,好好发展的话肯定是全马数一数二的!可是却这样被糟蹋!

这就是为什么除了沙巴汉以外的人,凡是进入沙巴的都必须做登记,Kastam会给你一张纸条,示意你在30天以内一定要离开沙巴。

沙巴不保护自己,情形会变得更惨不忍睹。

 

从以前到现在,沙巴对西马人来说,是那么的神秘而遥远。

没有人肯到沙巴来,仿佛这里都是野蛮人生存的不文明世界,NS被派来沙巴的都哭得要生要死,好像要把他们打入地域的样子。

沙巴是天堂还是地狱,你来看过才知道,至今只有西方的旅人才愿意来这曾经比吉隆坡还要繁荣的土地,探索它的回忆。

西马有三大民族,但沙巴有32个民族,西马的朋友应该都不懂。

东马是全马来西亚民族最和谐的地方,西马朋友应该也不懂。

在沙巴,回教徒甚至可以到卖叉烧的店来做棒餐,棒餐就棒餐,绝不会叫你摸叉烧。

回教徒也可以到华人海鲜店吃海鲜,卖海鲜就卖海鲜,绝不会突然跑出一块猪腩肉。

大家互相信任,也不需要避忌。但在西马应该没办法看见这种画面吧。

 

近年来Giant跑来沙巴了,巫统想要把西马的超市打入沙巴,再趁机控制沙巴的经济,很可惜受到沙巴汉的排斥。

沙巴有自己的报纸,有自己的超市,不需要假好心进来沙巴盗取沙巴的油脂再换取西马的利益!

国家抛弃沙巴,连9月16号沙砂加入马来亚成为马里西亚这么重大的日子都没有庆祝过!

....吃饱没事做的时候就炫耀说雄威的神山是马来西亚的骄傲...

神山是沙巴汉的骄傲,世界上最大的花朵莱佛西亚花也是沙巴汉的骄傲,濒临绝种的人猿亦是沙巴汉的骄傲,

唯独是没有为马来西亚感到骄傲。

 

我身为沙巴汉,衷心祈求916过可以让沙巴的同胞们过回一些好日子。

希望往后的916能够列为全国性的公共假期!联邦政府,请公平对待沙巴!

加油吧沙巴!我要见证你的发展!

(copied)

September 17

Love Never Fails

 

Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
-- 1 Corinthians 8-13

In the last sentence of the Bible's well known "love" chapter, 1 Corinthians 13 is a beautiful profile of love itself: "Love never fails" (v.8, NKJV). Have you ever asked the obvious question--Love never fails what? Here it is in summary: Love never fails to win. Let me point out two ways love can conquer what might be ailing your relationships.

1: Love never fails to conquer selfishness.

I am selfish and so are you. We never have to work at putting ourselves first--we've got that one down. But notice how:

"Love is patient and kind"(v. 4) Selfishness is mean and demanding but love overflows with kindness.

"Love does not envy or boast" (v. 4c). Love is not arrogant because it's not selfish.

"Love is not . . . rude" (v. 5a). Selfishness insists on the spotlight but love is not demanding or unreasonable.

"It does not insist on its own way" (v. 5b), because it's not selfish.

"It is not irritable or resentful" (v. 5c) because it's not selfish.

So love conquers the biggest obstacle in me, selfishness.

2: Love never fails to conquer skepticism.

Over time, it's easy to doubt that anyone is ever going to change. Your family disappoints you and you want to bail but love holds on. Like no one else, our family members can hurt and disappoint us. They do foolish things, and say wicked or hurtful words. In those moments, you want to run. But love does not sell out in the crisis. Love still believes the best; it doesn't keep score. Love trusts again. Love finds a way to give an opportunity for God to work. Love waits for God's agenda to be accomplished in their life. Love is being used by God to transform that person.

When I choose not to love, I'm in God's way but when I choose to love, God's helping me, and I'm part of the solution. In our wounded moments we think, we sometimes forget how desperately we hope others will give us another chance when we fail them.

Love never fails? Yes, love is part of the solution. Love is a tool in God's hands to work through you and transform your relationships.

Lord, thank You for manifested Your love among us by sending Your only Son into the world, so that I might live through him. Thank you that I can know love, not because I love You, but because You first loved me and sent Your Son to be the payment for my sin. Father, help me to love others as the best evidence that Your love has captured me. Amen.

Read 1 John 3:11-24. Insert your own name and your loved ones' name into these verse.

Think of someone in your family or close circle of friends. What would be the best way for me to communicate love to them today?

 

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September 04

sinking

 
 
*blurp.... blurp . . . .  blurp  .  .  .  .  *   Wilted rose
 
 
August 20

happiest shoppers

 

       It turns out the happiest shoppers aren't those who bag the biggest bargains, or those who spend whatever it takes to get the best items out there, or people whose wallets are gathering dust while they pinch their pennies.

       The happiest shoppers are people who aren't hung up on money or things. They'd rather spend on experiences, like dining out or travelling.

 
       Those people are 'experiencers,' as Dr Miriam Tatzel of Empire State College in New York calls them, reports AP.
 
       Dr Tatzel asked 329 college students to complete surveys about their shopping habits and happiness. Those surveys showed four shopping personalities (see...):
 
       Dr Tatzel then gathered information about well-being to gauge which types of spenders are happiest. The least happy are Big Spenders, who often have credit-card debt. The happiest are the Experiencers, she said.
 
       She presented her findings in Boston at the American Psychological Association annual conference recently.
The discovery that Experiencers are happiest doesn't surprise Dr Tatzel.
 
       She was quoted as saying in the US News and World Report: '... money spent on experiences tends to leave a stronger feeling of being happy than money spent on objects. Spending on travel, workshops or education, for instance, gives a happier feeling than spending on a car for these people'.

 
August 18

idiot . i know .

 
 
am i really that unlogical in thinking or am i really that brainlesssss?